Doubt of Studying

Since UTAR reopened at 18 of Jan until today, I feel like never learn something at all. Should I use "study mood haven't returned" this excuse again?

I think the answer is SHOULDN'T.

I was so desired to learn something difference from TARC or gain extra knowledge. Obviously, I didn't. I feel that everyday went to school meaninglessly.

In my first semester, the timetable was not packed at all. Everyday also got class but only one or two classes(normally one and half or two hours). Other time was so free. Maybe this is also one of the causes to make me feel lazy. Anyway, I will not use this as the excuse.

Secondly is insufficient of study material(I don't mean this problem apply to all subjects. It is only one subject). The thing we learned is copy directly one time from the sample given by lecturer. Student asked why need to copy, then the lecturer replied because want us to build the habit of measuring. Then everyone speechless.

I wish to express my feeling here but its hard(because I don't hope to debase my uni) . Argg.. I'm trying not to talk too much here because I feel guilty but...... haihz..

To be honest, I am so scared to be caught by school because criticised openly here.